Emotionally Charged Towel #11

I was looking through some old writings of mine from my younger years and I found this sad little tale. A few months away from my 30th birthday, I couldn't help but remember how I felt when at wrote it at 18, and if I'd changed any since then. Forgive the dramatics it was high school baby...

Once upon a time there was a boy. This boy was the happiest most doggone, whipsmart little boy that ever walked this planet. One day, without expecting to, the boy fell in love. He fell in love so deep that he thought he'd never get out, and he was right. He'd built himself a pit so far into the ground that the strongest ropes in the world couldn't pull him out. So he climbed for months and months until, miraculously, he finally emerged out of the hole he'd been stuck in for so long. When he got out, he ran away, promising never to fall in love ever again. So he kept his eyes cautiously to the ground but he couldn't help looking for love and always falling into places that were way too deep for him. It wasn't that he minded the fall, he just didn't like getting in over his head and perhaps looking was the problem. So he decided to stop looking and just go about his business and maybe, when he wasn't looking, he'd accidentally fall somewhere that he actually fit comfortably in and felt protected.
But everyday he continued to fall, and fall hard, Never quite landing on his feet so that his body felt sore all over. One day he plunged head first into another deep hole and landed with a familiar thud. He didn't know why he had stepped into this hole but it almost felt like he had to. There was almost a safety, a comfort, inside this new place but it went against the boy's better judgement and he tried not to linger too long but couldn't help it. The typical climbs out of all of his previous falls was always tough and harder than he liked. But this fall was different. He didn't feel like he did after getting out of all the other places. He didn't feel alone like he usually did, he felt a steady peace. So instead of heading up the rocky wall towards the light he'd seen so often he merely settled into a corner of this new and inviting space and went right to sleep.